the urge to have all limbs and tails completely enveloping someone else until you can see their anxieties about the external world fade away

hi im back from being bedridden whatd i miss

combat robit that has particularly thick armor around its neck for… no reason

it frustrates and upsets me that the need to feel valuable to capitalism poisons so much, but especially relationships.

we should celebrate the interests, progress, and excellence of our loved ones but instead, many feel threatened because of the inherent competitive nature in which we’re steeped. and often these feelings can’t be openly addressed despite the fact that it’s a systemic problem rather than an individual problem. too often i’ve heard expressions of these feelings be met with accusations of jealousy and the only remedy is to get good or whatever. it’s made much worse and much more confusing when so often these feelings are directed to those who are close to us. what are we supposed to say: “stop being so hot and good at stuff, it makes me feel worthless?”

even more specifically, it reminds me of the relationship between passing and feeling threatened by other trans individuals.

i hate the idea of living competitively. i like competition but competition only works when it happens in (mostly) a vacuum where the rest of the participants’ lives are cooperative – otherwise, it’s just reinforcing and celebrating the same shitty behavior that makes us miserable in the first place.

also quick vid of that data binding thing i was talking about

i find it really funny that kink seems pretty common among ace people, because it implies that the thought process is "Sex? That sounds boring. Oh, there can be ~contraptions~ involved? Well maybe that's worth checking out actually, I do like contraptions."

so rowan’s spent the past 2 weeks or so really working on a game. it decided to go with bevy because it’s the only thing that runs well enough on her laptop to actually develop something.

in the past 2 weeks, it has:

• setup a blender/bevy workflow using bevy_skein that allows design in blender and all the unfun stuff to stay in code
• made a basic player controller: movement, looking around with the mouse
• added physics (love u avian3d)
• made an interaction system that allows for entities to have arbitrary behaviors when the player interacts with them
• added an animation/animator system that reads from blender and kinda makes it work in bevy. it’s still kinda jank and doesn’t handle it very well, but it does work
• made a tiny ui framework with data binding
• made a change detection system that uses bevy’s new observers/events (just got done profiling this and it’s Not Bad ™ for a first attempt )
• setup tracy and configured cargo to build a slimmed down version of the game for testing and profiling stuff

would love to upload a video or something but there’s not much to look at and also fuck trying to record/screenshare on wayland, hate it so much. once that works though, expect a few images/videos

unknowable cosmic horror entity with thousands of multi-dimensional tentacles, who has a human she uses as a fidget toy cause shes real stressed out from her job as a ş̷̈́o̸̫̮̓͌͝f̸̢͇͉̔t̷͖̳͕͠ẅ̷̯̗̍̊a̶̡̞̓͜r̸̹͕̙͛̕ë̸͇͈̜́̓̓ ̶̤͍͛͐e̶̫͖̐n̶̦̩̕g̶̝̩̓̐i̵̥̜̇̔͒n̵̢̙̐ě̸̬̮͖̔ȇ̷͔̓͜r̴̈͜