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software tinkerer and aspiring rationalist. transhumanist and alterhuman

I try to be very careful about CWing things. sometimes I make mistakes but I want to make my posts as safe to read as possible

I sometimes post NSFW/kinky/lewd things behind CWs. this should go without saying but if you're a minor please do not interact with anything lewd/NSFW that I post

I have very limited energy and am very shy so it might take me a long time to reply to messages sometimes, or I might not be able to reply at all. this is kind of an "output only" account for the most part, but I'm hopeful that I can change that over time

I sometimes use curly braces to {clearly show where a grammatical phrase begins and ends}, like that. you can think of them like parenthesis in code or math, except they operate on grammar instead
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One of the weirder social phenomena I experienced where the intense anti-fedora sentiments of the 2010s that treated the hat as emblematic of Men's Rights activism and bad/sexist men in general.

It's still puzzling to me for a number of reasons:

1. It's just a hat.

2. It is an androgynous hat, not a specifically masculine one. (Kinda moved over time from being a tomboyish woman's hat to a foppish men's hat until it got associated with movie tough guys.)

3. Judging by the images, the headgear they where actually having an issue with was trilbies.

4. Knowing the difference between a fedora and a trilby was seen as suspicious in and of itself.

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I used to use Macs, and then I looked at iOS 7 and Gatekeeper and thought "eventually, Apple will force something horrific onto my computer, and I won't be able to say no". So then I used Windows until I looked at Win11 and Copilot and thought "eventually MS will force something horrific on my computer, and I won't be able to say no". So now the mac users are miserable with Liquid Glass and the Windows users are miserable with Recall, and am I happy? No. I am using Linux. But I chose my miseries

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re: Maths
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@Shivaekul ooh omg thank you! that is really good to know - I’ve actually been looking for some kind of book that would help me understand more advanced math stuff. I got a used college algebra book but I kinda chose that completely at random lol. it just sounded reasonably advanced but when I skimmed through it nothing looked like I wouldn’t be able to understand it

It breaks down the maths we know and gets into how it is constructed and why it works.

also this sounds amazing to be honest. I’ve always wanted a ground-up approach to math like that, instead of “memorize these axioms and formulas”

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@stefan @Alice

hah! you are too kind

obviously at hellions we have all the pentagrams you need - please do help yourself

inv_pentagram invertedpentagram pentagram_pride pentagram_trans doom_pentagram

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esolang where the only data type is a struct representing a Pokemon. complete with nature, EVs, IVs, moveset, etc.

there are no arithmetic operators. the only way to do math is by making Pokemon battle and then reading data from the struct afterwards

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re: minecraft trickster: basic persistent box drawing & remote control
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@transoptimal @enjarai ooh I would love to see pics or videos!

also I’m surprised that each “computer” floabw can only store one variable, but I guess since that variable can be a map or a list then I can still be arbitrarily large

also what datatypes can the map keys be? I’m guessing they can’t just be normal strings lol

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apparently it’s going to take another three hours to restore power

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I would be so miserable if I was sent to the past. fuck any year before 2010

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over an hour without power ugggh

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block game's first crafting gameplay loop is in! \o/ break leaves to get sticks, combine with flamereeds to get torches, place torches to light up the darkness

no particle/emissive textures system yet so the torches look a bit club-like, sorry

starting a new dev thread to mark the occasion, previous posts can be found here: https://mastodon.gamedev.place/@eniko/115418239486943047

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ugh the power died and now I’m stuck in the dark with just my phone and nothing to do :/

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it genuinely took me more than an entire day to realize that the result of (car (foo bar baz)) should not be foo

also I tried to represent lists like (foo bar baz) as (cons foo (cons bar (cons baz [Python None]))) and it took me a long time to realize why Lisp doesn’t do that (it’s because NIL being an empty list means that it’s still of type list, so you unambiguously know what type it is when you reach it with cdr)

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I’m making my own Lisp implementation despite having a tenuous grasp of how Lisp works, because I read 40% of a math paper about Lisp. I’m not even referencing the math paper as I write it I am entirely just making shit up

https://gitlab.com/__kasdeya__/kaslisp/

this is a bad decision and no one can stop me from making it

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Whenever anyone describes gender as a spectrum, or suggests that non-binary exists somewhere "in-between" between man and woman, we think of this video by non-binary trans fem content creator, author, and influencer Elle Deran NonBinaryHeart

https://www.tiktok.com/@elle.deran/video/7443177846874328362

The transcript is as follows:

So gender isn't binary?
It's not.
It's a spectrum.
Not really.
Wait, I'm confused. I was taught that there was man and woman, and non-binary people fall somewhere in-between.
Well, you see how a spectrum still has two ends? So seeing gender in this linear fashion relies on binary thinking and positions man and woman as these sort of opposing opposites. Which they're not.
Well, then how am I supposed to see it?
Think of it like this. We culturally see the sun and the moon as these opposite entities, representing the light in the dark. And when we look at the sky, they might be all we can see. But the truth is that there are billions of other stars and moons in the universe. Our sun and moon aren't opposing opposite. They exist together at all times, along with billions and billions of planets and galaxies and other universal entities, all of which have overlapping similarities and differences. And as we evolve as humans, we learn more and more about the universe. So when we discover a new planet, we didn't just make it up. It didn't just come out of thin air or thin space.
Nah, haha.
It has been there all along. We have only brought it to light.
Right.
There are infinite ways to be a moon, infinite ways to be a star. And there is so much more to our universe than what we can see in the sky. There are infinite ways to be a woman, to be a man. To be non binary. Infinite ways to be a human. And at the end of the day, we are all just different expressions made up of the same stardust. So, you see, gender isn't binary. It's infinite.
Cool.
Yeah.

Thought some of y'all might find this interesting, whatever form your own gender has taken from the stardust 🫶🏻

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positive mental health
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something i have come to realize about bpd is that most people feel nothing a majority of the time and emotions just come and go as the day progresses but because bpd makes you’re emotions bounce every which way and those emotions are so intense those times where you feel nothing feels like torture on the brain. it’s like the feeling of nothingness is intensified as well. but feeling nothing a good chunk of the day is normal for most people i think,, if you felt emotions all the time it would be very exhausting and draining even if it was a happy emotion,, i’m trying to learn that it is okay to feel nothing sometimes about certain things. i have always tried applying that to my life but in very unhealthy ways. trying to be mindful what i give my emotional energies to instead of giving in to every thought and emotion i have or just shutting down my emotions completely. it is not easy and i’m not even sure i am doing it right. but i am trying my best

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“Fighting the world as your authentic self is better than fighting yourself on behalf of the world.”

This quote inflicted on me a severe concussion of the identity, when I stumbled upon it in an unrelated article* back in January 2022.

It set off and guided a months-long outbreak of hyperfocused, ruthless self-examination, where I uncovered my own structural dissociation and eventually identified trauma, a process that quite abruptly led to the realisation, seemingly coming out of nowhere, that I'm trans.

*So what was that unrelated article about then? Being . 🤦🏻‍♀️

I still have the link: https://www.self.com/story/before-transitioning

[repost from January 1st 2023 on my previous account]

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look at my ass :3

and also maybe pay me for it neobot_bottom

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still doing sex work, still got a throne wishlist

https://throne.com/pharmafemboy

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@Owlor this also reminds me of the distinction between “genre fiction” and “literature” which always felt like highly distilled academic art-elitism to me

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One thing you get sometimes, especially in cartoon, science fiction/fantasy and children's entertainment spaces are people who have only encountered one good example of a particular genre and have come to the conclusion that it must have been miscategorized, cus they seem to think being bad/shallow is part of the genre definition?

I've seen this play out with Tolkien a lot, with people quibbling over whether or not he actually counts as a fantasy author, basically because his writing is good and his world-building is solid and like, that's just called being a good fantasy writer.

It occasionally shows up with children's media too and it's especially stark there because "children's media" isn't just a matter of genre, there are specific standards that apply to children's media, you can tell when something was made to be in that category by its vocabulary, reading level and what it can and can't show.

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