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software tinkerer and aspiring rationalist. transhumanist and alterhuman

I try to be very careful about CWing things. sometimes I make mistakes but I want to make my posts as safe to read as possible

I sometimes post NSFW/kinky/lewd things behind CWs. this should go without saying but if you're a minor please do not interact with anything lewd/NSFW that I post

I have very limited energy and am very shy so it might take me a long time to reply to messages sometimes, or I might not be able to reply at all. this is kind of an "output only" account for the most part, but I'm hopeful that I can change that over time

I sometimes use curly braces to {clearly show where a grammatical phrase begins and ends}, like that. you can think of them like parenthesis in code or math, except they operate on grammar instead
re: talking about masturbation with some minor details
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@h3mmy interesting - so are sexual pleasure and orgasm things that you’re generally not interested in? if so I’m guessing that you don’t tend to encounter situations where you have an urge to feel either of those things

and omg yeah I know the feeling of having to essentially invent your own language to talk about certain things, because the existing language just doesn’t communicate what you’re trying to explain. I wonder if every neurodivergent person has to do that to some extent - although I imagine you have to deal with that a lot when it comes to words related to kink, intimacy, etc.

also, you’ve had a physical climax from reading books? that is fascinating omg. is that a skill that you deliberately learned? I would love to hear more

in the past I’ve tried to have a hands-free orgasm (not caring whether there was a physical component to it or if it was completely mental) through hypnosis but I’ve never been able to do that. I’d really like to experience that someday - especially as a mental-only orgasm

It’s interesting to consider if these should count as masturbation. Mental Arousal and mental stimulation with the intent to “feed the desire” feels like it should count. Is there physical stimulation involved in the imagined scenario? Does that even make a difference? So many good questions!

these are really interesting questions. I personally think that pleasure or orgasm (physical or mental orgasm) that comes entirely from the mind with no physical stimulation should have its own vocabulary. maybe a word that’s the mental equivalent of “masturbation” would be a good start. but I think that those are special enough to have their own word(s)

although of course there’s a grey area there: what about someone who is touching a part of themself physically that is not normally erogenous, but they’ve made it erogenous through their mental state? for example if someone was hypnotized to feel pleasure and have the potential to orgasm from touching their belly button, are they masturbating by touching it? I’m not sure how I would define that

I feel like when there’s intent to feed sexual urges, it should count as a form of self-gratification like solo sex, even if it doesn’t fit the criteria for masturbation. Would you agree?

definitely! I don’t think I’ve heard the term “solo sex” before but I think that’s a very good umbrella term that could encompass “masturbation” (by my definition) as well as [some word for psychological/non-physical masturbation]. but I think that they’re all roughly the same category of behavior: feeding sexual urges or gaining pleasure by engaging with sexual urges

I feel like when you share your perspectives, it gives me a good catalyst for going into more detail about a topic. Thank you for that BlobCat_Heart

I’m really glad to hear that I’m able to help! I often don’t have the energy to think as deeply about these topics as you do but when I do I love being able to read your thoughts on them and talk with you about them - I always discover so much nuance that I wouldn’t have noticed otherwise, and learn a lot in general

If you want my first pass write-up about defining Masturbation, I did so here: https://lgbtqia.space/@h3mmy/115407651737161832 but I still need to go back and revise it for readability so you can comfortably circle back to it at a later point.

ooh, thank you for the link! I’m definitely going to add this to my “to read” list for when I have energy later

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if anyone wants to watch RAMDER+ play random #4D games he found online, he’s currently live streaming that here!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXFI8Z1F-2w

edit: the stream is over now but you can still watch the recorded stream

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@Shivaekul ooh okay so I did actually understand everything that I needed to about that! it’s good to know that abstract algebra is the thing to look up though if I run into this again. also this is interesting, and to be honest I really like the idea of math that is written in such a way that nothing is taken for granted like that. because I think a lot of math papers rely on implicit cultural knowledge within academia which I find frustrating

I think some of learning to read maths stuff is learning all the stuff it is okay to skim to and come back to later if you need to, cause they really do like to be formal in how they state things

ohh, interesting. I felt like I was doing something wrong by not understanding some (sometimes most lol) of the word choices in certain math things but I’m glad that that’s normal. and thank you for explaining all of this! it helps a lot

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expectation: a shader is what the GPU uses to shade geometry

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reality: a shader is when

graphics card

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Octavia Con Amore pink_moon_and_stars Succubard's Library

boosts_ok boost to help me survive espeon_love

This time, we're headed off the topic of Oblivion and onto...oh, the effects of one of the Daedric princes of Oblivion on Tamrielic goings-on? axolotl_shock drgn_laugh_sweat

Succubard Gently Reads: [The Brothers of Darkness]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Ta3DgLgY4A

Yup, it's the dark brotherhood, a group that stems from an earlier group who was born of a worship for Mephala cat_giggle The Dark Brotherhood quest-line is, as I hear it, a lot of people's favourites when it comes to The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion, from the way it's introduced to how it plays out, and it's often used as a barometer to measure other quest-lines up against, both in Oblivion and in other TES games.

Hopefully, you enjoy getting a bit of a look into the history of the organisation~ frog_blush

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If you like it and/or want to help me survive, ko-fi monthlies help me buy food for me and my cats and I appreciate every one a ton frog_blush
[ko-fi] https://ko-fi.com/octaviaconamore
[paypal] https://paypal.me/octaviaconamore

I also do live readings a few times a week over on Twitch if that's more your thing shiba_excited
https://www.twitch.tv/octaviaconamore

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Good morning~ blobcatcoffee

Feel free to join for a cup of coffee~

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🅰🅻🅸🅲🅴 (🌈🦄)

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Wow! My nude gallery has hit 13000 downloads now! 😳🤯

Speaking of which, I just added 20 photos to it.

https://lgbtqia.space/@alice/112414677450831186

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Mildly spicy web advertising takes

* 468x60 static non-animated non-tracking banners for cool webcomics and weird hobby blogs are brilliant and only the most tedious of people have any problem with them at all

* blog writers and webcomic artists getting paid a couple bucks here and there for running non-intrusive ads is Good Actually

* the shittiness of web ads scales exponentially in accordance with how much money you're trying to make off them - if you want a few extra quid each month for pizza and beer money, web ads are great and useful to everyone, that's the perfect use case; if you want more money than that then ads are the wrong tool for the job, and you can in fact use the wrong tool wrong enough to destroy democracy

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* the fact that my adblocker will look at a 468x60 non-animated non-intrusive non-spyware banner ad for a gay webcomic and go "ah yes, this can go in the same hole as this 50 megabyte video ad for a toothbrush you bought last week, loaded with so much spyware javascript that your processor fan roars like a jet engine," by DEFAULT, is... honestly tragic. These are Different Things but, remember the most tedious people in the world I mentioned above? They made the adblocker

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talking about masturbation
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@h3mmy I think I would define masturbation as:

physically manipulating one’s body in order to accomplish one or both of the following goals:

  • experiencing sexual pleasure
  • reaching orgasm

so for example touching an erogenous area that is arousing to touch, but doesn’t cause pleasure, isn’t masturbation. and listening to a hands-free orgasm hypnosis file, even if it causes a physical orgasm, doesn’t count as masturbation to me either

but I feel like I might be missing some nuances to this

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LB: remembered that I'm giving away advertising space for free PURELY BECAUSE THE WORST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD WANT TO CHARGE LOADS OF MONEY FOR IT, please give me your 468x60 pixel non-animated banner for your hobby website or small (small!) business.

Make it colourful and cool looking like something that someone would want to click. I'm not going to put it over content or move stuff around just as someone's moving their finger to tap on something or any of that bullshit, I'm not going to TRICK people into clicking it accidentally, so if you want anyone to click on it then it has to be Actually Enticing. Put it in https://www.improbableisland.com/hobbysites.php and tell your webring.

EDIT: expand this thread for examples of good ads, cool/interesting replies and some of the most incredibly niche websites you've ever seen

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@nico that is really cool! I feel like it’s almost unheard of for a lewd game to have genuinely good gameplay like that. even Lilith’s Throne only had a generic RPG battle system. I hope there will be more lewd games like this one then

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whenever I try to read Math Things it’s always super cryptic and using normal words in vague and esoteric ways like “an algebra is a set of values, a set of operators that it is closed under and some laws it must obey” and I’m just like, okay I don’t know what most of those words are supposed to mean and I can’t google them but I at least know what an operator is and what a value is so I think I get the gist? “an algebra is when there are values and operators and laws are involved somehow”

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@nico it seems cute, and the pixel art seems high-effort too! it doesn’t appeal to me personally because it seems to have sort of a goofy/cartoony approach to lewdness (also way too much of an emphasis on big boobs IMO) but I like that it exists

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ity [unit X-69] - VIOLENT FUCK

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Boosts plz neobot_bottom

10% I'm primarily a C dev and I find memory bugs to be EASY to avoid (in C)
10% I'm primarily a C dev and I find memory bugs to be DIFFICULT to avoid (in C)
31% I'm primarily NOT a C dev and I find memory bugs to be EASY to avoid (in C)
47% I'm primarily NOT a C dev and I find memory bugs to be DIFFICULT to avoid (in C)
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Fox has been added into the game, and with this we're about ready to upload the new build for betatesting!

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I decided to post a meme depicting the My Summer Car community modding space, after an issue not related to my mod was blamed at my mod, in a public post on Reddit that says “this mod sucks”. Obviously, this got taken into the wrong hands and any comment that went against the good part of my mod, by people who don’t even know what the mod is, got way more upvotes.

To fight against this behaviour of the my Summer Car community, and to help against the leaving of beginner modders after they meet the final boss that is the community, I decided to make a meme that depicts the My Summer Car community and accompanied it with a decent description of what should change: https://www.nexusmods.com/mysummercar/images/8359

First comment that I received was by a former mod author, that agreed with this, and even said what he experienced in his modding journey. I didn’t think that people would actually be told to off themselves because they made a mod. This community is utterly bad and this needs to be fixed. There are people who say that they’re “for fun” ruining the mental health of others, and causing them to vent a lot and in worst case scenario even kill themselves. And they’re not ashamed to put it out there.

Instead of making fun of mods (or the people who make them), we should be improving them. If you find a bug, report it to the mod author. That’s how mods, and the whole community, get better. Spreading misinformation like “asphalt roads is gay”or leaving toxic comments only hurts everyone. We’ve lost amazing mods and modders because of hate, misinformation, and pointless drama. It’s time to stop that. Support your favorite creators by giving feedback, not insults.

Lunya’s Mini Mods even has a button made for this - it first tells you how to report bugs properly, then takes you straight to the bug reports tab on Nexus Mods.

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Cassandra is only carbon now

I've posted it here before, but I'm still happy with https://memorable.website/. How much I was able to get from just using HTML, no CSS, no JS, nothing but good old markup.

No shade on CSS, and only some shade on JS. But it's nice to see that some of the basic stuff still works in some ways.

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but anyway yeah this paper has given me a much deeper appreciation for Lisp. not the Lisp implementations that exist today but the pure Lisp presented in the paper

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I feel like my ideal Lisp would be:

  • the simplest core language possible (this is not necessarily the implementation. what I mean is that the entire language can be modeled as just the features of this core language) (also by “simplest” I’m talking about conceptual simplicity and not necessarily simplicity to implement)
  • everything else is defined in terms of the core language. for example (cadar X) is defined as (car (cdr (car x))). every single function that isn’t part of the core language has a section of the documentation that gives a definition like this. these functions can be implemented in a different way as long as they behave identically to the implementation given in the documentation
  • build layers outwards, so that semi-core features are defined in terms of core features, and semi-semi-core features are defined in terms of {semi-core features and possibly also core features}, etc.
  • eventually build things up to the point that the language has as much expressiveness as Python and a similarly full-featured standard library
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I’ve been reading a Lisp math paper by the creator of Lisp which describes Lisp in mathematical terms and then describes how Lisp can be used to produce a Lisp interpreter in very few lines of “code”/“math”

and first of all I definitely think that there’s something beautiful about a language that can be explained “simply” (very relatively speaking) in terms of itself, but that is also so powerful that it can be built up from those basic building blocks into a full-featured programming language

it is a very dense read, and I find it funny how the creator of Lisp himself is apologetic about the syntax of Lisp lol. at the time of writing this it seems like he was interested in finding a better syntax but was limited by the BCDIC character set of the IBM computers he worked on

I feel like the creator did his best to explain things clearly but definitely could have done better, and I noticed a few syntax errors in his handwritten Lisp code and/or math syntax which I find kinda funny. even the creator of Lisp gets his parenthesis mixed up. some of those threw me for a loop for a while and I’m still not 100% sure if certain things are mistakes or if I’m just misunderstanding something

but idk reading through this paper has definitely given me a deeper appreciation for Lisp as a mathematical model of computation, and as a language. I can definitely see the beauty of a language whose entire core feature-set can be explained in a 35-page math paper. and which could presumably be explained in a longer article that’s designed to be more accessible for laypeople and has the mistakes fixed

also, I really wonder how close something like Common Lisp or Scheme is to the conceptual simplicity of the Lisp presented in this paper. I feel like Common Lisp has had a lot of… things added to it over the years, and I wonder if these languages still boil down to basic operations like car and cdr, maybe some arithmetic operations, etc. or if the list of mathematical primitives that they boil down to has gotten large and messy. unfortunately “large and messy” is the impression that I get of most Lisps, except for maybe Fennel and Janet

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