ive lost touch with old hobbies of mine, i think i should revisit those things

so i’ll be drinking scotch i can’t afford while crying and oversharing on fedi

but really im tired of feeling like ive Yet Again fucked up a bunch of relationships with others that i care about a lot. it goes from talking everyday to me begging for a single crumb of attention from them like an annoying orbiter or something. i’m not sure what i did or what quality it was, but i’d like to stop driving others away

also this isnt a “what did i do, i didnt do anything wrong” situation; there’s a shit ton of reasons, i just dunno which one this time lmao

simply not existing to someone is one hell of a thing