okay I’m going to try learning Clojure one more time but if I can’t get into it this time then I’m going to give up on Lisps forever and move on to either learning an old version of C or F#

it’s frustrating because the parenthesis syntax and the “everything is an expression” philosophy was kinda growing on me but like, wow these languages are from the 1960’s and it really feels like it too

I think it’s easy to make fun of me for only knowing Python and Lua (and JS, out of pragmatism) but like, every time I try to learn a new language I’m immediately confronted with so many ugly things about it and after a certain point I just get so disillusioned that I lose all interest in the language. Lua and Python are the only two languages (that I’ve found so far) where the elegance outweighs the ugliness for me. although Fennel is pretty fun too - I’m not sure where I stand on it at the moment